by Samuel
(Dallas, TX, USA)
Why is it that whenever I meet or see anyone of the same gender, especially if they are of the same ethnicity, I always "size them up". I always want to think that they are somehow inferior to me even though I am clueless as to who they are or what they are all about.
It seems like I am some how competing with them for something, but there is nothing to compete for because I don't know them and they don't know me.
It not until I actually speak to them and get to know them that my feeling for them changed. Is this normal?
Is there something wrong with me? Is it because I am insecure or afraid that others are better than me? I tried hard not to do that but not yet successfully.